Since the last medical news I posted was about a "bad" CT scan, you all may think I'm a little nuts to say that I'm healed. But God continues to reveal things to me, and for that I am very grateful. I'll just begin to share some things that have happened, and see where this blog post goes...
On 10/10, I went to church by myself. (Matt stayed home with Eva because Metro Harvest only has one service which falls right during her morning nap.) I was in so much pain, and it was noticeable to those around me. After the service, a woman sitting in front of me asked if I'd ever met Bonnie, and I said no. She said Bonnie has a gift for healing backs, and wondered if I wanted her to pray for me. I said of course. Then, obviously, when Bonnie asked what was going on with my back, I told her everything. She and a woman named Anita prayed for me. Some amazing things happened during their prayers. I don't give a whole lot of credence to my emotions since I know it's easy to be deceived by how I feel, but I am confident that something powerful happened when they prayed. After a while of their praying, I felt waves of peace and health come over me, and when I stood up, I had no pain. None. I felt whole and healthier than I have in a very long time. When I got home, I ran into the house in amazing excitement, and told everyone who would listen (family was visiting) that I'd been healed.
Now, fast forward 5 hours. The pain came back and I felt awful. Just days later, I got the CT scan. When I went for chemo the Thursday after, I was so sick. But, here's what I can tell you about that. I cling to Ephesians 6:12. "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
There is truly a spiritual battle going on here, and I believe that on that day, we gained much ground. And for those 5 beautiful hours, I was free of sickness.
I'm now two weeks into the new chemo. The first week was a little rough because I was sick and weak going into it. Previous to starting the new treatment, I hadn't eaten much in days. It took me 45 minutes to choke down a piece of toast the day before. I was in terrible pain, and hadn't slept much in days because of it. Also, the sleep I had gotten was done while sitting cross-legged in bed with two pillows on my lap and then laying my head on the pillows. NOT a good thing for one's back. So on top of the other pain, I was having back spasms. (Please understand that I'm not trying to complain, but only going into detail for the sake of comparison. It gets better, I promise). So week 1 of the new stuff was okay, but not great. Week 2, however, has been a comparative breeze! I am completely pain free (and have been since about 2 days after the 1st treatment), and my nausea is controlled. In fact, today I didn't even take anything for it. I just realized that! I have taken only 1 nap, about 1 hour long, since my last treatment almost a week ago. I have gone jogging twice, and have been doing push-ups and sit-ups. Today, I was gone from home from 9 a.m. to 4 p.m. and I feel only as fatigued as any mom of an incredibly active 9 month old would feel. :) I am so excited that I am experiencing life more abundantly, as Jesus promised. I am so thankful to Him for his GOODNESS!
I continue to confess the Scriptures daily. I continue to speak only positive words over my body. I have begun to understand (if even a tiny tiny bit) about faith, and what it means to talk about being healed even when scans show otherwise. (I have struggled with this concept as I am a logical woman and sometimes faith defies logic). I am well and healthy, and soon this battle will be won.
Psalm 91:14-16: The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love Me. I will protect those who trust in My name. When they call on Me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them My salvation."