Monday, June 7, 2010

It's Just Hair...

It's just hair, right? It's not coming out in clumps, but it is coming out...everywhere! My wonderful stylist Wendi cut it short for me on Friday (see picture below) when I really noticed it coming out (and either she or someone else paid for it...not sure, but she wouldn't take money. She said it was taken care of. Have I mentioned how incredibly touched I am by everyone's generosity???). So now at least there's not long strands everywhere...just short ones.

I still don't know if I'll lose it completely or if it's just thinning. I just wish I knew what it was going to do, because this is very annoying. I am sick of untangling strands from Eva's fingers. If I KNEW I'd lose it, I'd probably just go get it shaved one of these days and start wearing a wig. But Dr. V said it would just thin, that I wouldn't lose it. And Dr. Johnson said I would lose it. So who knows. I hate to even spend this much time blogging about hair. I know that it's not that big of a deal. It grows back. I am being healed from cancer!!! What is hair in comparison with that? But it still is hard. I am committed to being honest with all of my readers, and this is not an exception. I LIKE my hair. Even more than that, I hate the thought of Matt having a bald wife.

Okay, on a happy note, we're looking at houses!! It's so exciting to think that in just a few months we will be homeowners. When I first was diagnosed, this was one thing I was very upset about. I didn't see how we could possibly think about buying a house when the future was so uncertain. But now that I know I am being healed, I have no hesitation about buying a house that we can grow old in together. It makes me so happy.

Also, I have been using my imagination a lot to picture myself well and whole, fully recovered. In doing so, I decided something. Once the doctors declare me cancer free (and I believe this will happen sooner than later) we will have the biggest party EVER! Every single blog reader will be invited, everyone who stayed with me through chemo, hung out with me, cooked a meal, cleaned my house, watched Eva, prayed for me, etc. (I think that means everyone I know and many who I don't know will be invited.) :) And it will be the most grand opportunity to give God the glory for what He has done, for He is my Healer, the giver of life, and I believe that He loves parties!

Alrighty, that's all for now. Have a good day. :)


  1. Let me know if you shave your hea, I will do mine too, I don't like combing it anyway.

  2. That's a party we'll fly in for!! :)

    And I like the short hair - it's VERY cute!!! Less time to waste in the morning, styling it.
    Love and prayers from Cali,
    Lara, David, Jacob and Baby Boy #2

  3. You are fantastic - "I believe that He loves parties!" is my new favorite quote. Also, you LOOK fantastic and could definitely rock lots of fun wigs.

  4. Love your haircut & your positive outlook! Congrats on the house shopping!

  5. It may be just hair, but it IS important! No need to feel bad about blogging about something that is seemingly trivial, because it is definitely NOT trivial.

    Your haircut is very cute! I hope your hair just thins instead of falls out, but I'm sure if it does fall out, you'll find an amazing wig, and you'll keep looking cute!

    Congrats on house hunting! I look forward to pics of your new place!

  6. I love your new haircut! I wish I had an open weekend; I would love to do a photo shoot for you and Eva. :)

  7. Your haircut is adorable Rachel!!! You're such a doll!!!

  8. Your hair is super cute!!! I love it :)
    I'm excited that you guys are going house hunting! There's nothing like owning your own home ;)
    Also,I cannot wait for that party! We continue to keep you in your prayers. it's amazing to be able to keep update with healing that God is doing in your life. Please that you are such an encouragement to me.

    Anna, Dan, and Evan

  9. Your blog is such an inspiration to me! And while I hope you'll keep your hair, your beauty (both inner and outer) will continue to shine through whether or not you have a hair on your head.

    Sending love and prayers from California,

  10. I believe he loves parties too :) and stand-up comedy...

    looove the short hair, you'd look good bald too

    Karen O'Davis

  11. you are adorable... and so's your girl!

  12. I am RSVP-ing to your party. :) And the hair is so cute short!

  13. Rachel,
    I loooove the haircut! It is adorable!