Thursday, April 22, 2010

All Your Love

I just wanted to say that my heart is warmed and encouraged every time I get a Facebook post, phone call, email, blog comment, card or flowers! I am overwhelmed (in a good way) by the outpouring of love.

Many have asked what they can do. I wish I knew the answer, but know that I am documenting your offers and will call you when I do know what I need.

I did want to reach out to those of you that are local and say that I would love visits during the daytime when you're free. I am anxious about being alone right now and would love company. I have to add however, that I'm not good at coordinating or scheduling right now, especially with all the unknowns, doctor appointments, tests, etc.

So, you're probably asking, if Rachel doesn't know what's going on, how could I? For now, my suggestion is if you ever feel like taking a drive to Germantown, just call first and see if I'm home. Chances are I'd love to see you. If you don't have my phone number, just email me for it. As time goes on and I figure out what I need, I have a dear cousin Karen who is going to be my Volunteer Coordinator Extraordinaire.

Also, so many of you probably don't know what to say or are nervous about talking to me (I totally would be if the situation was reversed). I just want to put your minds at ease and let you know that it's FINE to not know what to say. I hope I can be easy to talk to in spite of all this. And I still want to know about your life too. Just because I have something big going on definitely doesn't mean the rest of the world has stopped spinning. I hope this helps. :)

Tonight, I am having some anxiety and my heart is racing. I don't know what that's about...probably just a physical reaction to lack of sleep and emotional upheaval. Please continue to pray for peace and HEALING!!! Oh Lord, I want to be healed. Not my will, but Yours be done.


  1. Rachel, you are on my mind and in my prayers constantly. I am praying today for the Lord to give you an appetite! Lots of love,
    Katie Revoredo(Wise)

  2. Praying praying praying, and talking about you and telling everyone to pray for you too. My friend in FL that I've known online for YEARS is praying for you too...

    I've wanted to call you but have been feeling like I needed to give you space... but I want to come see you and B wants to meet Eva so I will be calling you soon and I can't wait to see you and see how big Eva is. Still blows my mind that you're a mommy!!

  3. Also, do you remember the song by Twila Paris, "God is in Control"?? B and I used to freaking LOVE that song and would blast it on the radio... I think we'd even call in and request it during the lunchtime request hour... such dorks. Anyway, it keeps jumping into my head when I think of you, and I just Googled the lyrics... the ones I like:

    This is no time for fear
    This is a time for faith and determination
    There is one thing that has always been true
    It holds the world together
    God is in control
    We believe that His children will not be forsaken
    We will choose to remember and never be shaken
    There is no power above or beside Him, we know God is in control

    (if you listen to the song it's just so 1995, especially the end, but I still love it :)

  4. Rachel, you have quite a lot going for you. You are young, strong, so so SO brave and have a network of support that is overwhelming! Whatever the news today, know that all of that will work in your favor through this scary experience. Holding strong to your hope and faith will get you through this.

    Your blog is wonderful, so honest and open. Thank you for sharing with us! If the anxiety is too much to bear, call me and I'll distract you to the best of my ability, or at least take some of it upon myself. Seriously.

    Love you,

  5. hey girl--i'm constantly thinking of you and amazed by your attitude and strength! i'm not super close (well, not super far either), but if you do need another person to help out when the time comes to line people up, let me know! i will do my best in whatever capacity i'm able :) thank you for being an amazing example to me, but know that none of us expect you to be strong all the time and you are allowed many moments of being weak and holding on tight to those that love you and have the strength to carry you! love you girl--becca