Well, I've had a little time to process. I don't know much, but here is what I know.
1. God is in control
2. God is good
3. I have a deep peace and joy that could only be from Him
4. In spite of all this, I'm a bit sad and a bit scared.
I have a hi-res CT scan on Friday, and a follow up appointment with the oncologist on Monday. In the meantime, the oncologist is going to be calling a few pancreatic cancer specialists (at Mayo and University of Chicago) and see what they recommend for next steps.
Please pray for us. This is so scary, but I choose to trust the One who made me.
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
Horatio G. Spafford, 1873.