Monday, April 19, 2010

Waiting for Wednesday

As I'm sure I've mentioned, my next appointment with the oncologist is Wednesday at 1:30. It is there that I will get my biopsy results and next steps.

The wait is not going too badly, which I am certain can be attributed to all of your prayers. Again, THANK YOU!

One thing I am experiencing is some fear. My fear is not that the doctor will confirm the lymphoma diagnosis. In fact, I am hoping to hear that is what it is. My fear is that it is something worse.

I have been on an emotional roller coaster since April 12th. After hearing lymphoma, I was so scared. Then (thanks mostly to all my dear, kind brother's research that I haven't been able to do on my own yet) I heard so many encouraging things about lymphoma being treatable that I felt at peace with that diagnosis. Then I started thinking "What if they're wrong? What if it's something much worse?" And that is where I am now. So my peace is somewhat circumstantial. Please pray that God would give me the strength to say: Lord, help me to be content and at peace no matter what the test results show. I am your servant. My life is in Your hands.


  1. Rachel- we are praying for you and thinking about you often. I pray that God would continue to provide you with peace about the whole situation. Lots of Love!

  2. We are also praying for all of you as you go through this time in your lives. So many programs on Moody radio have been about trials and suffering since we heard of your challenge. God WILL see you THROUGH. We love you and are so glad you are part of our lives.

  3. Rachel,
    I love that you are back in Wisconsin! I have loved spending time with you and getting to know your precious little girl! I love her so much! Thank you for your beautiful gift of friendship in my life! You are in my thoughts and prayers always...